I'M HERE!!!! YAY!!!

Hey guys! I'm so sorry that i'm just now getting to be able to get on and up date yall! but i've been SOOOOOO busy! and even if i had free time i was sleeping! haha:D I don't have Internet in my room which really stinks but maybe just maybe i will get a router in my room! but it all depends on money and whatnot! Well i'm going to break down the days so you will know whats been going on! (ps. if you want to see pictures go to my facebook or myspace)

Tuesday, August 26th, 2008

Well that day was very interesting because i had to get up at 3am to be at the airport at 5 something for my flight at 6:10! I had a little surprise on the way there! My greatest friend in the world came and meet us and she went with us to the airport to see me off! I had to say goodbye to daddy and jessi first because they didn't have a pass to go with me to the sitting area! It was a lil hard but i was fine! Mom came through with me and we sat and waited on my plane! It was finally time to get on and my mom lost it! i mean what can i say i'm an amazing daughter how is it not going to be hard not to miss me! hahahahahahahaha! but anywho i got on the plane and it was very hot and awkward! (they need better AC!) hahaha :D My flights were really rough because it was raining really badly in Atlanta but my other flight was stuffy and hot and just not comfortable! I finally reached LA!!! YAY!!! one of the workers Leanne met me and we were on the way to DC! i met this girl Hillary right off the bat and she invited me to go to this Thai restaurant with the interns because it was the last few days for 3 interns! i had a blast! My roommates had not arrived yet so i was in my room by myself so i watched some Gilmore Girls and finally went to bed in a very hot room!!! haha:D\

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Well today was AMAZING! I got up and help metro kids with unloading the bus and got to know some of the ppl that i will be working with and whatnot! At one that day was amazing i went out with the Food Truck and went to Chinatown and another stop and we served 120 bags of food! It was really cool and fun! Its so funny how the women were very aggressive when it came to getting there bags it was quite funny! I meet some pretty cool ppl! That night we went to the beach and had a bonfire which was really fun! we roasted marshmellows and played games and built sand chairs haha! but it was so much fun to be at the beach i just love walking on the beach! after that i went to bed! yay!

Thursday, august 28, 2008

Well today i went to under the bridge ministry which was amazing! we went to sid row and fed hot meals to the ppl! The guy who is over it is Cedro he is like my favorite person EVER! But we served maybe 70 ppl but the same ppl came back for more food! i know this one guy who came he came back for like 10 or lil less times to get more food! it just made me think how selfish we are if we don't get to go to a fancy restaurant or not ya know! i mean these ppl only sometimes only get food when either the DC comes out or when other churches are giving out food! its crazy! But under the bridge is an amazing ministry! i loved it so much! i hope i get to go back with them again! That night we had service at the Temple which was really good! Ted Roberts came to church and spoke on Sexual Addictions and whatnot! it was really really good! Just the percentages of men and women who suffer from porn or just taking advantage of women and whatnot! oh i forgot right before Ted spoke guess who starting walking up on stage to talk ab how amazing the DC is and whatnot.. Danny Glover! how cool is that! haha ;D But it was really good! After church some of the ppl took me to in and out restaurant and to the place that is AMAZING! YoguartLand! omg! it was amazing! if you come out here we HAVE TO GO! haha ;D and then we went back to the room and we finished getting our room into place haha ;D

Friday, August 29, 2008

Today is orientation all day long lol :D! bright and early at 9:45 lol :D (i'm so glad i didn't have to drive:D) We went through our book and talked with Pastor Matthew. Then Justin took us on a tour of the DC and then went back and had lunch and then went to Target to get somethings that we needed and whatnot.. then HALLELUJAH PRAISE YOU JESUS! my boxes came in! it was so good to have my blow dryer my sheets my PILLOW! haha ;D but it was exciting! so i got all my stuff together and looking cute (somewhat) lol :D that night Justin took us to Hollywood so we saw the Chinese Theater.. some some other cool places haha;D it was really cool to go! then we came back and went to bed!

Saturday, August 30th, 2008

Today is a VERY VERY busy day i mean busy! i was on the go all day long! At ten we go to Adopt-A-Block! we go to different neighborhoods and give food and just talk to them and knock on doors and whatnot! I had fun! Cedro, Danielle, and I went around and talked to ppl but mostly we got to know Cedro alot more and just to hear his story! After we got done with that we took the kids to the park and we had a bbq we had hamburger and hot dogs so that was fun! the kids played ultimate Frisbee and they did water balloons! Oh another thing that is really cool the park we were near we could see the Dodgers Stadium! so that was really really sweet! haha ;D After the bbq we went to church! and Pastor Brad spoke which was really good! He talked ab how when we are spiritually empty we turn to shopping or money or entertainment or Christianity (as in not God but just turning religion) it was really great! after that me and Danielle went out to eat to the diner which was really good but compared to home it was really expensive haha:D but i have to get used to Cali and how expensive it is! lol :D then came back and def went bed!

Well i well try and update yall once a week if i can! but i start my job on Tuesday so we will have to see! but i love ya guys! Just pray that God will use me and that i will just use my heart and let God take my heart where it is supposed to be! if you would let to support me you are more than welcome to! Even if it is just with prayer i'm grateful for that!

I love ya guys so much! And I will see ya in six months!

ONE DAY!!!!!!!!!

WOW.. can you believe that i leave in one day? cuz i sure as heck don't! it hit me today! like i've already cried today! lol :D i just started thinking of me getting on the plane and saying goodbye to my daddy and mom! and i just started boo whooing! haha ;D but today was really rough because i had to say "see ya later" to some amazing ppl today! and it was really rough! but i'll be okay as EVERYONE keeps telling me i'm gonna do great out there and i'm umm i know EVERYONE is telling me that haha :D but honestly as much as i love yall to death i'm ready to get my butt out of here! and just forget ab all the goodbyes! haha but i'll write more maybe tomorrow! but i've gotta run and pack my carry on so it'll be done so i won't have to worry ab it! Just pray for me!

Love you guys!
♥
Victoria

4 days until the big day!

Guys this is crazy! I leave for LA in 4 days! its so crazy! I'm getting a little angry at the whole leaving thing. I just wish it was just go away! I'm not a big fan of goodbyes! The fact that i won't be able to see my family and friends for a long period of time is really rough! Like my baby cousin will be one in Feb. and i'm going to miss the first time he walks talks or whatnot! My friends is the hard part because i've made the most amazing friends ever in the past year that its indescribable!

Stacy has been one of the greatest friends that i could ever have. She tells me the truth and sometimes i'm like hang on stop it your being mean but when i look at it she's being truthful with me and its what i need to hear! i can honestly say she is my best friend! idk what i would do without her for six months!

Jessi and i have known each other for four years. This past year is when we really became close, but the past few months is when we became really close! i love her to death! She helps me when i def need it the most.

Amanda. wow my twin! haha ;D she is amazing! idk what to say ab our friendship! We tell each other everything! I think i call her or atleast txt her everyday! We learn something different ab each other everyday!

Ashley and I are literally twins! because we like the same thing. our middle man are the same! haha :D I know we can keep each other accountable no matter what it is what we are going through she is going make sure I stay at my word! haha :D

Also i have great guy friends! Until i came to EC i never had such amazing guy friends! sometimes they def get on my everlasting nerve but i love them to death!

But anywho! summing this all up i'm going to miss all my friends! I love yall to death!

Well i gotta run ab to have a lunch date!

♥
Victoria

WOW.. two weeks until i leave!

guys this is crazy i leave in two weeks! and its starting to hit me like woah! like my baby cousins asked me in a sad voice asking how many months are you going to be gone? and i was huffing and puffing saying six! and like on sunday i was like this is my next to last sunday :( and then pastor derek wants me to talk tomorrow night ab me leaving and how much the youth group has been to me and whatnot! but its starting to hit me not completely but almost! haha :D but i thought i would share that its going to be 2 weeks! ahhhh ;D

the amazing week i've had!

okay so the college group was doing a group fast of all water and if you needed to juices and broth... well i was excited to do it.. but i was like do i really want to give up food haha:D well i did the daniel fast that friday and saturday so i could get used to not having that much food! well sunday was okay you know just the whole water thing.. except i had "lunch" with my big brother and his sister and they had teriakyi chicken and he had the cajun pasta thing.. and i was like you have to be kidding me! i stuck it through i didn't eat anything! but it was hard cuz i'm over here just drinking my water! haha ;D

well that day went good.. that night we had service at church and it was good but honestly i really didn't get anything out of it but it was good! that night me and amanda went and got some broth and omg it was okay then but after that i was ab to throw up cuz it didn't go so well with the stomach! haha ;D well that night was over and then we start a brand new day! well the day started out with my stomach going grrrrr i need food!

well i go to work and i open the fridge and omg there is shrimp so i had to control myself i didn't have anything.. i just drank water and juice! that night we had a get together so we can be accountable for each other and just talk ab whats goin on in each others lives at the moment! well we just started talking and whatnot.. i started saying how i felt like i think the reason why i was doing this is because i need to learn to trust God and not have such a wall built up and not let Him in!

Well i also said i was having a hard time with leaving for LA cuz i'm def going to be a different person when i get back cuz going to LA is going to shape me mold me and i will def grow up ALOT! and also over the past several months i have the made the most amazing friends ever. either new ones or i old friends that i have gotten i awhole lot closer too! and i was afraid when i get back we aren't going to be as close anymore cuz most of them are in relationships now and they are going to be close to them or whatnot.. and i was i said that i remember when i was trying to mail my app for LA i couldn't do it cuz i just didn't trust God that He had His best interest in me! but anywho once i said that Cameron said so the reason you don't trust is that you are scared that you are not going to be accepted and just be rejected! and i was like ummmm dang... wow yeah!

well also ppl were saying that night how much we surround ourself around food! and how much we just concentrate on food! i mean i know we need food to survive but still i was getting tired of just food when i should be concentrating on God and God alone! so that just got me thinking! well another day passed with no food and i woke up tuesday morning with so much energy i took a shower and when i got out i was like a different person i was dancing and whatnot it was crazy i was so hyper its not funny! it was funny!

well i started reading Fasting by Jentzen Franklin and omg.. it was talking ab the verse where it says in Matthew 6 ..."when you pray, when you give, and when you fast"... it made me realize that fast is part of praying and giving.. i didn't know it was such a big deal! no one has ever told me that! Well a funny thing that happened that day was the boys were eating tacos and i caught myself staring at them eating them and whatnot it was quite funny! haha ;D well an hour before service i was writing my prayer down cuz i get A.D.D to pray out loud! ;D

anywho i just starting praying that i was tired of being so fearful ab being accepted or rejected and started praying ab my future husband and at the beginning of the prayer i prayed how i long to walk hand in hand with You.. well we got to church that night and Jane King's team was there to pray over us and there was this lady who came over me and said when i walked in she saw that i was walking arm in arm with God. How amazing is that! also she said that He has my back He has my back! She said more but I really don't remember it.

A few minutes later a guy came over and first of all started out saying.. i'm a country boy and i you has a plow and everytime something happens you pull back and don't move forward (which is totally right) well he also started talking ab my future mate and how i need to wait on Gods timing and i need to not be so worried that he will not come, he pray fear of rejection and acceptance to be gone and whatnot.. but while he was praying i was like dude for serious did you just read my prayer that i wrote.. lol.. but it was an amazing night! I just have a different insight on fasting.. i just didn't realize that fasting is a major part of life.. but i think that is about it that i need to explain! :D

Love,
♥
Victoria Nicole

a month away

guys! omg.. i leave a month from yesterday! thats is so crazy! i'm so excited nervous and scared! idk why scared but i am! I put my two weeks notice in last week at garfields.. and i don't want to leave i love it there! i mean times there are really hard cuz the ppl get on my ever lasting nerve but the managers are amazing.. i think they are the best managers i've ever had!

but anywho.. i also only have two more weeks left at the nanny job! (thank God). So our college group at church is doing a fast for three days cuz Cameron thought it would be good cuz i think it will help our group get back to where it needs to be! I'm not going to lie at all friday and sat was hard because i did the Daniel fast because Sun Mon and Tues we are doing an all water fast and we need to get our body used to the not eating as much thing.. but i'm being for serious man it was hard yesterday cuz no lie every one of my tables got my favorite food there.. and i was omg.. i want some meat! haha :D

but you know what i'm scarficing what i strive to have everyday so i can be back in the presence of God.. and learn new things from Him cuz when i'm having the hardest time i can just pray or say a verse and He will help me through it! lol :D but this week my parents are in DR for a mission trip (how exciting) so i'm at converse with amanda! so i'm happy ab not being at home by myself! so yay! we are going to Carowinds on Wednesday with my youth group! i'm pretty pumped ab that cuz i haven't been there in a while! so i'm ready to ride those dangerous (lol) rides! idk if there is anything else thats been going on that needs to be said! except that omg i leave in a month!!! AHHHHHHH lol :D

umm.. just thinking..

well i leave for LA a month from sat. wow. time has gone by so fast since i applied and then finding out that i was accepted. my mom has gone LA crazy! she has typed letters, made me a blog for family/friends, and a email. when i saw all this my nerves got a lil tense cuz reality is setting in that i'm actually leaving to go to LA. i mean i knew i was going but i guess for once i got what i wanted. i know that sounds a lil selfish but its true for once i wanted to do something more than anything and God allowed me to have my dream! and that is so exciting. more than you can possibly know i'm so excited ab that!

Over the past month i've had a hard time with being around everyone cuz all my friends are dating someone and last monday me and stacy we doing a bible study and i realized that i need to stop being so freakin selfish and realize that God gave me my dream and purpose that i need to fullfill! to be honest before i realized this i was thinking why does everyone else get to date and whatnot and i'm over hear being single and watching everyone else be so happy with their boyfriend you know. But know (now i still think that) but its not as bad cuz now i'm like okay victoria stop being so freakin selfish you are leaving to go clear cross the country no time for a relationship and you get to leave your dream and help the community out! and i have to keep telling myself that! l

ike it says in Isaiah 6:8 i think.. .. who will go for us? and i say HERE I AM SEND ME! and the Lord says go and fullfill what i command you to do. and i say FOR HOW LONG? i so paraprased it but its okay! but i'm so excited to see God stretch me and mold me into what he has called me to do! i know that it will be hard its DEF not going to be easy. because when did God's plans become easy? haha ;D well i gotta run mom needs me to help with something in the kitchen! thanks guys

♥
Victoria Nicole

Update on the internship

Okay well i got accepted to the dream center! i leave in a lil over a month! i'm so excited but so nervous cuz i'm going to be away from my family and friends! :( but i guess i will have to get over it cuz this is my dream God has planned this for me for a reason! I found out today that i will be with Metro Kids, Food Truck, and Adopt-A-Block. I'm so excited ab that! i was hoping to be in the girls home but things got changed for a reason! but i think thats ab it right now but i will def keep you updated!

confused

you know i was at work tonight and i was talking to this guy who comes in regularly and i was telling him that i will be going to LA to do an internship at the LA dream center and he told me he had a gut feeling that i shouldn't be out there.. what the heck.. i mean this guy is a "good christian" guy but idk what he was talking ab i don't know if the devil was talking through him just trying to get me worried or to think you know maybe i'm not supposed to be out there.. maybe i'm supposed to be going to college this year.. idk.. i mean i want a college education but i want to go to LA and also he told me that i hope you don't get accepted.. you aren't supposed to be out there! what the heck this horrible idk what to do.. i'm so confused.. i'm starting to doubt that God was really telling me i should be out there.. i don't know what to do.. i mean yeah i'm going to be DEF praying ab this but seriously what do i do?????

Update...

Well.. just to let you know why i have setup this blog is because in 4 months.. i will be leaving to go to LA.. for an internship with the Los Angles Dream Center.. I'm so excited more than you could ever imagine... i haven't sent in my application in yet but i am this month.. I'm kinda hesitate because last february i applied for this discipleship and i got rejected and its been a little hard for me because i thought it was what God wanted me to do but i guess not..

I mean i pray and hope that this is what he wants for me.. its a good opportunity for me to do it. I will be out there for six months without my family and friends.. and for thats very hard.. It costs 600 for the internship but my mom says for you to go out there you need to have saved up for your car payment which will be 720 so thats 1320 i need by july! ekk.. but God will provide!!! I am working two jobs.. i work at an after school program and at a restaurant so i should have money to do this! Another thing is with me going out there i'm involved in this most amazing youth ministry called Student Life and we are starting small groups and i don't want to leave the kids i get involved with because what if they need me in an emergency and i'm not there you know..

so idk.. if kinda funny today we had a meeting and we were talking ab the activities we were doin in july and i looked at my calendar and July 23 is my last wednesday at EC and i got these butterflies in my stomach.. (like i'm getting now).. lol :D I know that everything is going to work out and that i need to trust God but you know sometimes its hard because you want it so bad and you are afraid because you want it so bad its not going to happen.. if that makes sense.. Well i'm off for the night i have to be at work at 8:30 arghh.. not so happy ab that its my spring break for heaven sakes.. can't a girl sleep in.. lol. :D