Update...

Well.. just to let you know why i have setup this blog is because in 4 months.. i will be leaving to go to LA.. for an internship with the Los Angles Dream Center.. I'm so excited more than you could ever imagine... i haven't sent in my application in yet but i am this month.. I'm kinda hesitate because last february i applied for this discipleship and i got rejected and its been a little hard for me because i thought it was what God wanted me to do but i guess not..

I mean i pray and hope that this is what he wants for me.. its a good opportunity for me to do it. I will be out there for six months without my family and friends.. and for thats very hard.. It costs 600 for the internship but my mom says for you to go out there you need to have saved up for your car payment which will be 720 so thats 1320 i need by july! ekk.. but God will provide!!! I am working two jobs.. i work at an after school program and at a restaurant so i should have money to do this! Another thing is with me going out there i'm involved in this most amazing youth ministry called Student Life and we are starting small groups and i don't want to leave the kids i get involved with because what if they need me in an emergency and i'm not there you know..

so idk.. if kinda funny today we had a meeting and we were talking ab the activities we were doin in july and i looked at my calendar and July 23 is my last wednesday at EC and i got these butterflies in my stomach.. (like i'm getting now).. lol :D I know that everything is going to work out and that i need to trust God but you know sometimes its hard because you want it so bad and you are afraid because you want it so bad its not going to happen.. if that makes sense.. Well i'm off for the night i have to be at work at 8:30 arghh.. not so happy ab that its my spring break for heaven sakes.. can't a girl sleep in.. lol. :D