the amazing week i've had!

okay so the college group was doing a group fast of all water and if you needed to juices and broth... well i was excited to do it.. but i was like do i really want to give up food haha:D well i did the daniel fast that friday and saturday so i could get used to not having that much food! well sunday was okay you know just the whole water thing.. except i had "lunch" with my big brother and his sister and they had teriakyi chicken and he had the cajun pasta thing.. and i was like you have to be kidding me! i stuck it through i didn't eat anything! but it was hard cuz i'm over here just drinking my water! haha ;D

well that day went good.. that night we had service at church and it was good but honestly i really didn't get anything out of it but it was good! that night me and amanda went and got some broth and omg it was okay then but after that i was ab to throw up cuz it didn't go so well with the stomach! haha ;D well that night was over and then we start a brand new day! well the day started out with my stomach going grrrrr i need food!

well i go to work and i open the fridge and omg there is shrimp so i had to control myself i didn't have anything.. i just drank water and juice! that night we had a get together so we can be accountable for each other and just talk ab whats goin on in each others lives at the moment! well we just started talking and whatnot.. i started saying how i felt like i think the reason why i was doing this is because i need to learn to trust God and not have such a wall built up and not let Him in!

Well i also said i was having a hard time with leaving for LA cuz i'm def going to be a different person when i get back cuz going to LA is going to shape me mold me and i will def grow up ALOT! and also over the past several months i have the made the most amazing friends ever. either new ones or i old friends that i have gotten i awhole lot closer too! and i was afraid when i get back we aren't going to be as close anymore cuz most of them are in relationships now and they are going to be close to them or whatnot.. and i was i said that i remember when i was trying to mail my app for LA i couldn't do it cuz i just didn't trust God that He had His best interest in me! but anywho once i said that Cameron said so the reason you don't trust is that you are scared that you are not going to be accepted and just be rejected! and i was like ummmm dang... wow yeah!

well also ppl were saying that night how much we surround ourself around food! and how much we just concentrate on food! i mean i know we need food to survive but still i was getting tired of just food when i should be concentrating on God and God alone! so that just got me thinking! well another day passed with no food and i woke up tuesday morning with so much energy i took a shower and when i got out i was like a different person i was dancing and whatnot it was crazy i was so hyper its not funny! it was funny!

well i started reading Fasting by Jentzen Franklin and omg.. it was talking ab the verse where it says in Matthew 6 ..."when you pray, when you give, and when you fast"... it made me realize that fast is part of praying and giving.. i didn't know it was such a big deal! no one has ever told me that! Well a funny thing that happened that day was the boys were eating tacos and i caught myself staring at them eating them and whatnot it was quite funny! haha ;D well an hour before service i was writing my prayer down cuz i get A.D.D to pray out loud! ;D

anywho i just starting praying that i was tired of being so fearful ab being accepted or rejected and started praying ab my future husband and at the beginning of the prayer i prayed how i long to walk hand in hand with You.. well we got to church that night and Jane King's team was there to pray over us and there was this lady who came over me and said when i walked in she saw that i was walking arm in arm with God. How amazing is that! also she said that He has my back He has my back! She said more but I really don't remember it.

A few minutes later a guy came over and first of all started out saying.. i'm a country boy and i you has a plow and everytime something happens you pull back and don't move forward (which is totally right) well he also started talking ab my future mate and how i need to wait on Gods timing and i need to not be so worried that he will not come, he pray fear of rejection and acceptance to be gone and whatnot.. but while he was praying i was like dude for serious did you just read my prayer that i wrote.. lol.. but it was an amazing night! I just have a different insight on fasting.. i just didn't realize that fasting is a major part of life.. but i think that is about it that i need to explain! :D

Love,
♥
Victoria Nicole